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I've had just enough time

2012-01-25T13:06:00.002+08:00

My back hurts.

Once again, I slept 90 degrees up right with my neck in a weird angle :(

At least I submitted my second portfolio!

I cracked my iPhone front glass yesterday!

Yeah, I was pretty much just waiting for this day to come since I got it.

I assumed I would break it in India, ironically, I broke it here, in Malaysia, so-called civilization.

and This online portfolio thing is just so random.

You wait 123456789hundred minutes before the JPEG/PDF/DOC file actually uploads.

annnnddd

I just remembered: I have to hang the clothes up. So yay me. Bye.

Ola

2012-01-17T11:14:00.001+08:00

Working on my portfolio is the most stressful thing, especially with deadlines. But, I am quite enjoying the pressure.

LOL
I didn't sleep last night.
Now, I just look like a freaking zombie with my massive eye bags and shiny lipstick (I can explain: my cousin just gave me a new Sephora lipstick :)

(._.)zZ

I should start studying

2012-01-11T12:46:00.001+08:00

Back at Home ;)

2012-01-11T12:45:00.001+08:00

2012-01-11T12:43:00.001+08:00

I have a couple of theories...

2012-01-11T08:03:00.002+08:00

TO WHY THOSE THREE MEN AT THE (let's call it) FISH SHOP WAS STARING AT US - Brandon, Yan, John and I.

They were not staring, they were glaring, like glaring without even looking away, like they had a BIG problem with us. Dude, can't you see? People actually eat looking at their food yo. You tryna look all Gangsta on us? Seriously, you look like beat up old man (40ish) with no life but the food you're eating -_-

Yeah, I was so chicken I made it so obivous they were looking and freaked out a little. hahaha!
Brandon ate too much food and was lying down in the car with his hands on his tummy. LEGENDARY - ATE TOO MUCH. (you'd think Brandon?? NO WAYYY) LOL!

And I told him: "You couldn't save my life to save your life bro.. (looking super worried of course)"
"Probably not, if they punched me I will vomit on their face like some pokemon."

I think at that point I accepted that everyone was going to get hurt... at some point. They didn't stop glaring until we left and even after we entered the car, like whaddafudge man.

ANYWAY, THEORIES :
As on twitter :)

Theory 1: Brandon is the only non-Chinese in this so-called Chinese chill out gang.

Theory 2: They saw my halo. Woops, I won't be hiding it anytime soon though.

Theory 3: They saw the angels all around us (cough) Kavach of the Devi (cough) #Angelsdoitbetter

Theory 4: They were sadist. Sad old men who had no families, refuse to grow-up and envied the younger generation.

Theory 5: They felt intruded in their "territory"of a restaurant. Sorry dude but I didn't notice your pee all over it, my bad.

Theory 6: I might have laughed too loudly at some point and they probably thought I was laughing at them. Could the world get more perasan than this, seriously? -.-

Theory 7: They were gangstas who felt challenged by Brandon's pudginess, Yan's ability to eat plus John's intellectual over-analytic mind.

Theory 8: I was too dark for a Chinese to be true. LOL TANNED sista!

Theory 9: Our food looked better than theirs. Two words: SUCKED IN.

Theory 10: I did raise my kundalini and gave myself a bandhan, hence, the shield. Maybe they saw the shield.. ooo.

Yeap, that's all I could think of to settle my mind on my way back in the car ride.

So, if Brandon remembers our breakfast unplanned-plan and calls his friend to pick him up and pick me up :) yay me. Though, I doubt that'll happen.
I should really start studying (sigh)
Okay, bye.

BREATHE

Now Playing : HERE I AM - BRYAN ADAMS

AND FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY IT'S DONE

2012-01-11T07:54:00.004+08:00

I finally today at the most auspiscious 7:50 a.m.
SUBMITTED MY ONLINE APPLICATION TO UCAS

Thank You God!!!

(I should probably go delete all my tweets, or at least censor them, I swore alot online, that's how lame I get. Kids read stuff online man.)

Seriously, it's exciting and all but it seriously worked me up.
The past few months, looking for my certificate.
Try doing everything in ISPS, India where the wi-fi is such a fail and where the principal herself said she doesn't trust me to have the laptop (even though I'm 18 and clearly an adult and clearly the oldest girl in the whole dang school).

So, the one thing that stopped me last night, or should I say 1:11 a.m. this morning was the payment fee for applying. Credit Cards, blablabla.... I wonder how you apply if no one in your family has a credit card/ debit card/ atm card.. Hmmm.

Luckily, it's still yesterday in the UK.
AND there was a reminder, in 5 days application deadline.
PHAAAAA-EWW.

DONE.

THE RAIN - JOE HISAISHI.
PS: I still have to study my ass off for the final examinations and sit for my IELTS this Saturday. (Sigh)

Summarising My Year

2011-12-20T00:36:00.002+08:00

I woke up to this every morning

I love the girls

I realized that no matter how small you are, You will always matter

I made a friend who is now my Rakhi Brother

Dreams do Come True
Except you'd have to know what reality really is
#AngelsDoItBetter

2011-12-18T04:41:00.001+08:00

On the plane

2011-12-18T04:40:00.003+08:00

Graduated from the foothills of the Himalayas

2011-12-18T04:40:00.001+08:00

Whoa, that sounds real catchy.
But indeed. It's going into my personal statement :p

Winter is Here

2011-12-12T17:51:00.001+08:00

2011-12-12T17:50:00.003+08:00

University Applications

2011-12-12T17:50:00.001+08:00

So I've been trying to narrow down my choices for unis.

UNTILL TODAY

I've decide to apply to as many unis as I want to, find the best lecturers, teachers, guides etc. Whatever you call them and get into unis worth my time :) Problem (almost) solved.

Thanks to Google, life is made easy...
For research I mean. Lol.

God only helps those who help themselves right? Cheers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIV

2011-11-24T15:48:00.001+08:00

I will miss this place

2011-11-24T15:44:00.001+08:00

Lights

2011-11-24T15:33:00.001+08:00

MIKA
FLORENCE AND THE MACHINE
JACK JOHNSON
THE BEATLES
ONE REPUBLIC
JASON MRAZ
MAROON 5
CHRISTINA AGUILERA
MICHAEL JACKSON
SIMON & GARFUNKEL
BOB DYLAN

:)

2011-11-23T15:56:00.001+08:00

Darth

2011-11-23T15:55:00.001+08:00

Because life gave her lemonades to begin with

2011-11-23T15:47:00.002+08:00

So, I recorded a song.
I love it.

Lauren is here and so is her MacBookPro. hahaha!
:) I'm having fun here. Exams start in approx. 5 days, and starting with Math.

Talk about coping.
My waking up everyday at 3 am to study is such a big fail.
So, today I woke Viv up and went back to sleep. -.-

ENYA- MAY IT BE

It totally works

2011-11-21T15:55:00.001+08:00

Because I tried fitting myself into a paper bag!

Yeah Hi

2011-11-21T15:51:00.003+08:00

Meow

2011-11-21T15:51:00.001+08:00

I Love You Too Lobsta

2011-11-21T15:50:00.001+08:00

Unread, just like unfinished.

2011-11-21T15:13:00.001+08:00

I looked through my hotmail emails.
I stumbled upon mom's emails sent to me in 2009.
I ain't crying but wow, hey mom.

2011-11-19T16:10:00.001+08:00

Straight Lines

2011-11-19T16:07:00.001+08:00

Stopped amongst the weeds to pick myself up again.
They say that the only difference between a rose and a weed is judgement.
So, why the critical judgements?

Why does that same insecurity creep back everytime you stare at me with those same pair of eyes that degrade me in your vision of imagination.

Maybe it doesn't matter, it doesn't at all.

This juxtaposed amateur slow yet fast beat created nothing but hollow works of nothingness.

You are what you are.
I am what I am.

We ought to stick to what know, or should know by now, ourselves.
Your insights of life do not justify my actions the same way I don't fit in your ways of life and perspectives.

Breathe.

The Race Begins

2011-11-19T15:48:00.004+08:00

I've decided to wake up early and study for my BOARDS.
Yeah, that decision turned to action = FAIL.

I know I ain't getting anything done being such a procrastinator.
Life ain't always placed on a silver platter.

Florence and the Machine - Bird Song
I've been super obsessed with this song since Lauren came all equipped with her Mac and iPod.
Unfortunately her itunes doesn't have this song. Dayum.

I went for art nationals three weeks ago.
And you know what, I stood in front of my blank canvas doing what I do best.

Back to the Heart

2011-11-19T15:40:00.001+08:00

"Shyt, what's my aim again?"

2011-06-04T14:54:00.003+08:00

So, a new math substitute teacher for a month! South-Indian, average height.

I'm taller than him.

He goes around asking our names,

like the typical ice-breaker but in a South-Indian Accent.

And says we're all the Children of God.

And eventually comes to the dreaded "What's your aim in life?" topic.

So the instructions were given. We had to all stand say our names, followed by our aims in life.

It goes in a circle.

We all wait.

It's the same for everyone.

"Fulfilling a list"

"Be connected to God, always"

"Be the world's best geologist"

"Be a good human being"

da-de-da-de-da

My go!

He whacks my knee, points at me.

I stare at him while standing up.

I look around.

I lean on my chair.

He tells me to stand properly.

I do as he says.

I whisper "Shyt." while looking at the guy behind me.

Then, I surrender and say what I meant to say in the first place : "I don't know."

Easy and simple,

while everyone looks in my direction.

I turn around. I smile. I sit.

The teacher smiles,

Says how happy he is that I'm honest.

He goes back to his initial position - in front of the class.

I AM AIMLESS.

and it feels good.

2011-05-29T18:26:00.002+08:00

[backspace] x 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

My Silence is not killing me

2011-05-29T18:22:00.002+08:00

She grabs her hoodie, puts on her cap, stands up from her sit, looks out the window, ignores the unignorable weather, steps out of the door, goes down the steps, running through the disastrous wind, hurt from the bullet-like droplets, panting from the lack of stamina.
Finally shelter. Is God angry?

I'm home.

100% in History

2011-05-23T20:43:00.005+08:00

Suck on that! :)
oh yeah, oh yeah, I'm totally showing this off. For once, I didn't nearly fail my history. Haha. I practically made my own paper so, whatever. Well, I figured the paper out. How hard could it be? Pretty much all the questions in the textbook would somehow appear somewhere in that crazy 45 minute paper (1st Units), and it miraculously did.

But hey, I studied my arse of and it was well worth it.

I'm looking at my blog now going : "I BLOG?"
like THE FUDGE?
Half the things I blog about, I don't remember.

I've definitely grown shallower, probably anyway. By the looks of how I used to think then, and how I think now, whoa, big gap like the financial differences in China. lol!
Sir Chemistry was talking to us today about economics, finance, entrepreneur, recession etc.
I actually don't mind it, though the topic of money makes me nervous, like twitchy. lol!

School's good, great, excellent, perfect, over expectations, and then back to below average.
That's just because I'm a girl = I have mood swings that you won't stand for.

:)

I will start a new blog. After I turn 19 anyway.
This time, it's personal. haha!

fun or what?

Back in the midst of cold feet

2011-03-08T15:59:00.003+08:00

Yeap, back in school and THIS year (2011) will be my last year here.

Okay, I've decided to be less of a whiny biatch and maybe start enjoying the things around me and seeing the best in everything. Seeing as nothing I do will take me back home. It's not like I can teleport. lmfao. Hopefully that works out well.

Well, let me just complain that the keyboard sucks.

I do miss home, I really do. and Yamm, and Lauren, and all.

But if I'm meant to be here, and school's what God thinks I really need right now, I'll do it.

Doesn't mean I'll ace this year, just means I'll take what I can get and give what I'm comfortable giving, and I'm definitely not settling for extra after school classes. kiss my butt.

And yeah, blogging. hmm... don't know if I should get bored of it already.

We'll see.

Though THIS I like.

xxx

WOW. THAT was ME?

2011-03-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

by Shan Shan Lim on Wednesday, March 11, 2009 at 11:51am

Gosh, I haven't done this yet. T'was my first tag.
20 Facts is too much to be handled. This would be about me then.

1) Popcorn can get really really really sickening after some time.

2) I hate it when people tell me to do something and they don't do it themselves. Very hypocritical.

3) I love music, my instruments and I think the piano is an awesome invention.

4) I performed Barney's (purple dinosaur) on stage in a shopping mall when I was 10 with a few other friends. They called our ballet class and we were the perfect group. We got 100 bucks tho! :)

5) When I push you far far away, that's when I need you most. Though, some space would be good.

6) Willy Wonka's are my favourite candies.

7) I want to be an artist.

8) I want to be taller.

9) Sometimes, I get along with boys better than I get along with girls. I don't like it when girls gossipoverboard.

10) I don't like it when people make a BIG deal out of something small. I find it really stupid. There's no point suing someone for spilling coke all over you.

11) You're never too old to learn something new.

12) You come to earth with closed hands and you leave this place with open hands.

13) I have weird taste in music.

14) I like the face expressions of people laughing.

15) I don't know what my name means.

16) I like hanging around people who make me happy and open minded people. (:

17) I prefer my glasses to my contacts.

18) I hate it when people compare themselves to me and try to start some competition of some sort. I hate it when they make it VERY obvious. It get's on my nerves. I don't do competitions like that.

19) I'd rather give someone something I made than buy it.

20) I can't wait to go back to school. ISPS!

xxx

There's still hope

2011-01-25T19:12:00.004+08:00

for this generation

for this current situation

for the future.

have faith lah!

Malaysia boleh!

Something I will always keep up with

2011-01-24T11:35:00.002+08:00

FASHION.

Despite the unnecessary exposures in this industry, I keep up with it.

I do, however, know my boundaries and will forever be the same Shan Bunny.

Hello World.

Spaztik Monkey

2011-01-24T11:26:00.003+08:00

Somedays, you just feel completely spaztic but totally awesome and nonetheless retarded I must say. Talk about sugar high. weee.

I finally got my CNY dress, thanks to my awesome awesome cousin (and her bf).

:') The best couple I've ever seen in my life. No kidding.

So, we decided that this year we would dress alike.

And we ended up getting the same dress, different colour, totally freaking awesome if I must say so, without a doubt. Shoulda seen us yesterday modelling up and down the room, from the left room to the right room, laughing our asses off.

We definitely got some shots but we'll save that for later (After CNY) and the best for last ;)

PS: Aka, if you're reading this, I love your totally awesome colourful fluffy stockings.

PPS: There we go, social suicide. I love you! :)

Generation Deprived

2011-01-21T11:22:00.001+08:00

11:09am

LOOOL! fb first -.- 

HAHAHA

this is called efficient. 

no wayy

this is called our generation is officially retarded

PS: I PASSED MY UNDANGS!

Live your life with eyes wide open

2011-01-19T21:03:00.003+08:00

I may say many things, but that won't change most things (or) anything.

I may look like a convincer but I'll end up being the convincee.

lol.

Whatcha Say

2011-01-19T11:31:00.001+08:00

I should really take into consideration - what I say.

People take me too seriously. lol.

HBD AC

2011-01-19T00:37:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJA-G!!!

Shan screams from across the universe, literally.

LITERALLY.

Type Addict

2011-01-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

Rehab?

no cure.

I bought kohl today

2011-01-18T21:48:00.002+08:00

Everyone knows that kohl is better than just plain black eye liner or any gel liner. lol.

Ok, unnecessarily necessary.

Too bad, I Win.

2011-01-18T18:18:00.002+08:00

It's 6:20 p.m.

BED TIME! ;)

I'll be who I am

2011-01-18T18:15:00.001+08:00

Personal Reminder (18th January 2011)

PS: You're only 18 years old.

Don't grow up too fast

Don't grow up too fast

I love how slow I get

2011-01-17T23:03:00.005+08:00

Here's what happened:

So,

Life was like : "Here, take this lemon."

(When life gives you a lemon....)

Shan was like: "Huh? What's a lemon? Oh, oohhh, right, lemon. LEMON! got it! OKAY! Thanks."

(Shan was too slow.... )

Shan grabs the lemon, looks up and sees life staring back at her like this :

(=_=)'' *sigh*

Shan : "This lemon's plastic and fake isn't it?"

Life: "How'd you guess? Damn it, humans always fall for my 'When life gives you a lemon...' thing! Cliche. I guess you're fast (wink) and you're not (normal) human either. Oh well, time to fool some-normal-one else. toodles!"

When life gives you a lemon, you give something back, something better, like a kickass answer back "It's fake, silicon implanted". HAHA!

PS: I'M STILL FASTER THAN YOU. AND LIFE DOESN'T GIVE LEMONS. OR DOESN'T ONLY GIVE LEMONS. HAHA. It's like How Optimistic Are You?

From Chands' shirt: Life sucks, and then you die.

Picture on it is a stick man slammed into a tree.

The world just went wrong

2011-01-17T22:19:00.004+08:00

Talk about failed flambe, it totally failed.

Even the lecturer himself couldn't do it.

You can blame the following:

(wth, it's like back-to-school!)

a) The air cond

b) The lecturer

c) The person who turned on the air cond

d) The small fire

e) The person demonstrating

f) The man himself

lol, reminds me : Be a man! Do the right thing!

PS: I eat dessert. I do! I do!

Check the face

(blame the dad)

Internet These Days

2011-01-17T13:21:00.002+08:00

Isn't twitter, tumblr, blogger, facebook etc. etc. etc. all the same?

It's like

MAIN AIM: UPDATE, UPLOAD, UP-YOURSELF.

LOL.

Where's all the useful information?

Even google's wikepedia is wrong. haha!

Advantages of Bhangra

2011-01-17T02:13:00.002+08:00

I'm strong now ;)

I may be slow

2011-01-17T02:04:00.002+08:00

but I'm still faster than you!

GANDHI DID AN AMAZING JOB :)

2011-01-16T22:49:00.003+08:00

-______-''

eh she private her photo 

life is hard

wahliao...why u so random...

after 4 yrs didn't see u 

u become a....how to say 

psycology 

or fisiology 

i dunno 

psycho?

sudden talk about life ! 

oh

psychologist

LOL

HAHAHAH!

philosopher?

physiologist?

arrr !!! YEA YEA 

-.-

THATS THE WORD 

which one?

philosopher 

Gandhi did an amazing job didn't he?

thank him for me LOL

What Up?

2011-01-16T21:43:00.003+08:00

So,

you don't feel like talking at all.

you don't feel like moving at all.

you don't like stupid questions.

you refuse to speak nicely (though you know you can and that would do everyone better, but NO)

you (unlike everyone else) lock yourself in your room, and all you do is? SLEEP.

you get annoyed with everything even though everything's perfectly normal and perfect.

you shift uncomfortably as if you sat on spikes.

the only eye contact you give is one that looks like you're a freaking mutated ninja.

you can't wait to leave civilization and redraw yourself to complete isolation hell yeah, with chocolate if you possibly can.

Wait, yeah, sounds familiar?

PMS, It's no joke.

AMAZING

2011-01-16T17:57:00.003+08:00

We had (wait for it)

THE BEST NIGHT OF OUR LIVES

Why?

BECAUSE. JUST BECAUSE.

Tell me what's more to love than bhangra & bollywood in THE RAIN! HOMG!

Real freaking rain, not fake movie (pipe/tap) rain, actual rain which makes every step turn into a SWOOOOOSH! (splash)

dance with style. super super sexy ;)

Passing Time

2011-01-14T16:01:00.003+08:00

I've been doing some clean up in my room, wardrobe mainly and looking at my clothes makes me tired, hence I'm out here doing this. Keeping my energy level in place.

lol.

I haven't eaten (as usual).

Who eats lunch at 1630 pm anyway?

(tummy growls)

Well, I have a ballet performance to attend this evening! How exciting! I can't wait. It's been 4 years since I stopped, this will definitely inspire me full on! Anyway, I have VIP tickets :) Thanks to my dad's friend being a ballet dancer and all. CAN'T WAIT!

PS: I get to wear heels hehe :)

LMFAO

2011-01-14T15:59:00.000+08:00

2011-01-14T02:29:00.001+08:00

मैं चाहता हूँ

That should be right. lol.

I was right

2011-01-14T02:26:00.002+08:00

I did end up watching 3 quarters of the movie Meet the Parents, Little Fockers.

Sick.

PS: I can't wait for Berlesque to come out! :)))

(pees in pants) weee!

I Miss You

2011-01-14T02:21:00.001+08:00

LMFAO

2011-01-14T00:51:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO GO TO THEIR "CONCERT" (haha) SO BAD! :')

LOL

2011-01-13T19:22:00.000+08:00

Lily: We should come up with a whole new last name.

Marshall: Oh, that's easy; Lily and Marshall Skywalker.

Lily: Lily and Marshall Hasselhoff.

Marshall: Oh, got it. Lily and Marshall Awesome. Hey have you met the Awesomes? Lily, Marshall, their son Totally, and their daughter Freaking?

BULLY

2011-01-13T12:15:00.002+08:00

shan bullied me into riting this while she goes off to hav a shower.... boring. dont noe wat to rite.

-chris

Willow Smith - Whip My Hair

2011-01-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

OMG. Amazing? She's 10 yrs! TEN!

Girls Day Out

2011-01-12T19:54:00.005+08:00

Ever had a really awesome time with your gf's (not boys, lol! What are awesome times for you eh?) and raided the shopping mall head to toe, up, down, left, right, centre, in, out etc. ?

Well, speaking of that, I just had one today with my girls Viv, Chris & Grace.

Nonetheless was it really really chilled, too chilled really but it was also amazingly comforting like eating fries in front of a tv and wearing pms pants. haha! Definitely in comfort zone. Check!

lol.

Summing up the whole day:

We tried on everything we didn't buy and danced in (out) every fitting room we entered.

PS: Heels are my current holy shmoking obsession.

I'm a size: 37/38

(hint hint)

Driving Classes

2011-01-11T00:35:00.007+08:00

So, I've been doing some internal debate with myself, wondering whether I should have chosen to get a driving lisence during this holidays, or get a job?

Cheer: Get A Job! Get A Job! Get A Job! Get A Job! Get A Job! Get A Job! Get A Job! Get A Job! GET A JOB!

You betcha.

NOT.

Plus points in getting job: ka-ching! It's like instant ca$h!

Plus points in learning to drive: you get to drive, and that's that.

wtf, I chose driving in the end since every single 18 year old out there seems so thrilled to be driving a car and shopping on their own and going places and etc. etc. etc.

So, I sat through the first class (all talk and no play), they call it "undangs" for 6 hours straight. (sigh) kill me, and hell yeah was it boring. Thank god he was Indian, because Indians are funny jokers [Fact: Russell Peters is Canadian, he only looks Indian, seriously] and he somehow managed to have a whole load of stock up on YouTube videos of accidents/people dying in accidents/car crashings/ladies driving badly/ladies trying to change car tyres and fail/men showing off while driving and dies/monkeys driving cars etc. etc. etc.

I skipped lunch that day, and I didn't have my breakfast. Holy macko was I hungry.

Worse part was I slept at 3 am the ~~night~~ morning itself and woke up at 7 am.

-.- zZ

So, I was literally dead the whole time. I tried doodling around the empty pages of the book, then figured that I should really pay some attention to the class and then, 15minutes later drone off towards the direction of the empty blank page staring back at me, desperately pleading to be covered with multiple kejillion scribbles. Yeah, it was rather tempting. :( I didn't cover the whole page up in the end. FAIL.

I walk out of the class and stood all alone (though I wasn't the only one standing alone) and eventually made one friend/two/three.

And I even met an old school friend, primary school friend to be precise.

He used to sit next to me in strd 4 or smth. T'was really nice.

Towards the end of the day, I made about 5 friends all together.

Not bad eh?

2011-01-10T21:10:00.002+08:00

Lauren got a guitar!

2011-01-09T23:22:00.006+08:00

I'm jealous :) I love you lobs! FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER...

Life is Good.

I will cut my hair someday

2011-01-07T21:15:00.008+08:00

I had a good manicure 2 days ago and that was refreshing!

I miss my ultimate buddy Yamm.

When are you coming?

I had a little time to figure out that I've been wasting my entire holidays so far and I should start being productive and finish up my unfinished/untouched math homework which has been haunting me for the past month.

However, on the bright side I watched every movie that ever came out so far! ;)

except Meet the Parents, Little Fockers. I'm expecting that to be really idiotic, hate those kinda movies. sick sick sick.

Oh, plans so far:

go to the dentist
cut my hair short (for a change) before leaving to school
save money

xoxo

Shan2

2011-01-07T01:43:00.001+08:00

You must learn to like the things that I like, because I'm cool. B)

Never say impossible anymore!

2011-01-07T00:56:00.001+08:00

oh right, Chris got heels.
THAT should be noted down in HISTORY baby! :)

haha :p

xoxo
Shan2

I'm so bored it hurts

2011-01-05T11:17:00.002+08:00

I'd rather be outside doing something for useful with my life, but seriously, I'm just stuck at home, with no driving lisence, with two cars outside unused, in my pjs, with a manicure in my mind.

I need to go out asap.

HNY

2011-01-01T16:40:00.005+08:00

oh well

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY :)

Better Together - Jack Johnson

xoxo

Shan2

2010-12-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

LIKE A G6

I've decided-ish

2010-12-23T02:21:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging in forever. It's like I'm an autistic blogger.
and I've started to use the addicting abbreviation L.O.L.

lol :p

I have 2 months free. I should start making myself useful.
Maybe get a job. Maybe get my driving license.
Where should I start?

I'm turning old in January and it's 2 days till Christmas.
I love Christmas. I love the atmosphere of Christmas. I love Christmas preparations. I love Christmas shopping (BIG SALES). I love the decorated malls during Christmas. I love the Christmas decorations. I love Santa Claus. I love people. I love green.
CHRISTMAS :) makes me happy.

I guess I'll be doing some art too. hopefully.
2010 passed a bit too fast. It's alright. We'll get closer to 2012 now shall we?

TIME IS RUNNING OUT

2010-12-23T01:34:00.004+08:00

stupid eye. lol.

I hate how I can only upload 5 pictures at a time.
This is prom. THE high school prom.

Don't worry. The dress is no longer under my belonging. (:
It was a one time (never again) thing called peer pressure. jks!
Thanks to Becky and Nie who helped me out for prom preparation.

Best prom ever. lol.

xoxo
Shan2

Suspense

2010-12-19T01:07:00.001+08:00

Wait for it...
beats thrillers eh?

xoxo
Shan2

PS: I'm home. home. HOME.

2010-08-07T18:20:00.000+08:00

I'm still around.
Give me one more week to chill.
I scored straight A's in my half yearlies.

:)
Yay me!

Speaking of the Irish Luck and Tonnes of love

2010-07-16T20:35:00.008+08:00

I found SEVEN four leafed clovers yesterday.
"Vat an auspiscious number yarrr..."

Oh yeah, it was definitely my lucky day yesterday or would I say luckier than usual at least.
I didn't get in trouble AT ALL, my sleep was good. I dreamt of Buddha. (: AND, I managed to study some Math. (I'm so proud of myself! teehee)

So, I've been doing some thinking lately, which is never a good thing just because it puts a serious look on your face and makes you swear alot.
At least in my case. Shhhh...

How is it possible that there could be so much anger or even hatred in one person?
Answer is IT'S IMPOSSIBLE.

You know you love someone
when you stay with them and nothing's awkward AT ALL.
when you don't have to say anything and it's fine.
when you don't feel then need to constantly entertain them.
when you want them to always be there with you.
when you like the same songs they do even though you hate it. haha. kidding.
when you don't have to ask to borrow something lame like a shirt or a pencil.
when you behave like your total self around them.
when you argue over something small but end up laughing at it.
when you can whack them and they'll still love you back.
when you say "whatever makes you happy baby" and they go "ew shan".
when they can tell your mood instantly without having to ask.
when they accept you for all your flaws, imperfections.
when they compromise.
when you can act like a total lunatic in public and they don't send you to jail for it.
when you say I LOVE YOU and they say I LOVE YOU back.
when they offer their four leaf clovers to you.
when they sit and listen to your horrible voice while you sing at the top of your lungs.
when they point the middle finger at you and you laugh and say : " hahahha.... nabhi finger! "
when they say : "I'm hungry..." and you want to give them all the food in the world if you could.
when you treat each other like angels.
when you have mud on your pants and they'll go : " you have crap on your bum! " HAHAH...
when they find "ILOVEYOU" flowers and peel the petals off one by one knowing that the last petal will always end with "Iloveyou".
when the world falls down and they're the last ones hanging on, waiting for you to get up from all that mess and stick on to them.

:)

I ought to leave now.
I'm late for meditation.

xoxo
Shan2

PS: I made two shirts for Christopher and I'm really into sketching now. I want my dorm to have a non-aggresive day for ONCE IN MY LIFE. (: Peace.

LAUREN

2010-07-13T14:29:00.004+08:00

hey,

You may just be there.

Yes, I do have good book suggestions.

Right, so, this applies to everyone also, if you want to be applied really.

The ones in Italic are chic books (:

For One More Day - Mitch Albom

Queen Of Babble in the Big City - Meg Cabot

The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom

Bell rang. Seriously...

Till next time.

I love you lobs.

xoxo

Shan2

500 years later...

2010-07-08T14:30:00.004+08:00

Yeah, the result of lack of internet and tonnes of homework.
No blogging time. Oh Hot Damn!

(Sir) Jesse left the school for uni. :'(
Seriously, I didn't think he'd actually actually leave until my last year (next year).
So, I made him an awesome book. Which starts with the first page saying "Hey"
followed by the next page "Jesse"
followed by the next page "U'R"
followed by another 100 pages saying "AWESOME" in five billion different designs.
One person per page. Everyone took part in designing their own awesome cards.
And I binded them together with the spine of the book saying "Jesse's best book in the world"
I'm positively sure you have even imagination to imagine that. (:
He gave me his awesome baggy big jumper which was this colour. When I say baggy, I mean BAGGY. He's about 6 foot tall. (:

Gibran came. I'm not even kidding.
I'm so proud of his optimism. Seriously, how many people can you find who are optimistic, really. And carry your stuff for you when you walk (many actually but whatever) and buy you chocolate. (bonus) heh... kidding. He's nice.

Chris is not leaving yet. Only on Monday. SHAIT. I have to finish painting his BHARAT shirt for him. Bharat in Hindi means India. (You probably didn't know that).

I am no longer an angry child as I have been the past 2 days for absolutely no reason, something just not related to me and something that I blamed myself for -insecurity, fear.
I'll be a hippie in 5 years. Watch me. haha!

And again, learn to chill people.
It's not the end of the world if your pasta goes wrong. lmao.

We're starting a new dance with Milan's breakdancing/hiphop ideas in it with my ballet stuff. We'll see if this works out! Thanks to Chris(tina) who somehow worked out the timings for our practices and location. Love you hun.

Yesterday was most possibly the chillest day of my life.
I lied on the grass with LeFluff and Xtopher looking at the stars talking about how we're just made up of energy (molecules) nothing more.
And they saw a shooting star. I didn't get to see one. But they saw one! :)
"When you wish upon a star..... Makes no difference who you areeeeee....."
So I was singing. heh.

Bell rang. gtg.

xoxo
Shan2

2010-07-01T15:27:00.000+08:00

Hey.
Bye, I have Chem class.

Crazy Crazy Week

2010-06-20T16:56:00.003+08:00

Chands

Gracie

A gift for the boys' dorm!

SHIT.
I haven't paraphrased my Macbeth AT ALL.
I didn't start. Not a single drop.

This week was just hell craaazy. Everything was happening all at once.
I swear, this school is not at all good at organization. Seriously, they either put everything too far or too close. But, I guess, that means everything goes fast. (or slow)

I skipped two days of school doing nothing but sleep this week. Woops, my bad.
It's alright I guess. I need it.

Just about a 2 days ago right, like half an hour before school started, after we had out breakfast, we assembled in class like any other Friday. And, I arrived late, typically.
So, I just missed a whole long 20 minute of angsty screaming of Ms.Class Teacher right.
The lamest thing was that she was screaming (as in eyebrows knoted together, finger pointing, really loud frequency, voice echoing off the walls) at us for our classboard.
It was so full of anger and hatred and it was really disturbing. I can't really tolerate angsty behaviour and hence, I stood up walked away and just left the classroom without her concent.

And, we had our dance competition where Christina and I bags the 2nd place and what I realized was all the first place dances were all Indian dances. Our principal's really into Indian Culture I would say. She doesn't really fancy Western Culture.

The next day itself, we had a badminton competition which Sushi and I played doubles and we lost in the finals. which means we're 2nd losers. (:

And, I played Frisbee with Chris and Raphael the next day and listened and chilled while Ruffy and Jesse jammed with the keyboard and saxophone.

And There's the house board decoration which we all stayed up till 2 am for. Lame.

And we watched Startrek.

And Xtopher and Luv gave me plain shirts which I will be designing soon.
And I'll be doing Math in about 5 minutes time. A total of 300 math questions.

SHOOT ME.

xoxo
Shan2

Bite Me

2010-06-15T18:29:00.004+08:00

Oh, yeah.
Luv, Chris(topher) and Milan went for a hike like last Sunday.
So, I stayed up till 3 am on Saturday just trying to charge the completely dead battery and deleting some photos.

And it was my first time...
Seeing boys "have fun" through wrestling. lmao. It was uh...entertaining. I guess.
Except for the part where they almost fell on me (with full force mind you).
Wait, wrestling for a tiny torch, because Luv was being all irritating and shining it in my eyes and I was like : " Chrisss.... Luv is bullying me!" and then he was off the ground wrestling Luv to the ground and I stayed as far as possible and got the torch of Luv's hands and bingo, stuffed it under my bum. hah! That'll teach him a lesson.

And I made a vow to be able to do ONE pull up before Chris leaves.
Ok, ok. Let me clear this for you. lol.

Chris is Gracie's brother.
He's here on his summer holidays I think and he's volunteering meaning he's a dorm uncle for free as in he doesn't get paid.
and he's also helping out in like many things around. Somehow.
:) Done.

I have a tonne of homework to do and it's never gonna decrease by itself which I just found out a few days ago, which is lammee. I mean EVERYONE needs a self-decreasing homework sometimes in their life don't they??? We deserve it sometimes.

Wait, and I have a whole Macbeth to reparaphrase.
Plus, Chemistry homework.
Plus, Math homework. We're learning limits and I don't get a single crap of what's going on!

xoxo
Shan2

PS: I love Gracie and Chands and they're moving dorms. (sigh)

FEE FAH WHIRL CUP 2010

2010-06-13T23:24:00.007+08:00

Did you know that there's an island called Bikini?
Biba found it while taking the sticky tape off the map that hung on our wall that fell during a storm because the walls were cold and the sticky tape was no longer sticky that it could not tolerate the weight of the heavy world map and hence, the map fell on the ground, covering one of the legs of my luggage and while I woke up all blurred and confused, I tripped over it and almost had my head hit the edge of the study desk which was kind of scary and causing an immediate alteration to my mood that day.

It's amazing how one tiny thing can cause any reaction at all.
It's like we're humans and we should be knowing better but oh well.
Even cats can tolerate more than we petty humans can.

Well, that's not the point today. lol.
I was trying to say that
There's a freaking island called bikini.
and Biba commented on it saying it's an island made for Blondes.

I literally spent the WHOLE DAY doing unfinished homework of the past two weeks.
And I still didn't succeed to finish the homework load.
Well, at least I did enough to satisfy the teachers that I have classes with tomorrow.
I've been going on like this for the past week since I arrived here.

No, I'm not in the state of depression for somewhat obvious reasons that may have occurred during the past week but I am however having a lack of sleep even though just last Friday I skipped an entire day of school and had a total of 12 hours of sleep.

That 12 hours of sleep was gone to waste just because I stayed up till 3 am last night watching the FIFA soccer match (England vs. America). Seriously, I was literally teething the whole time. Each time the ball got closer to the goal, I got nervous and started like rubbing my tighs or do something with my toes or scrunch up my face or something just plain embarrassing. And, I would giggle when I see the goalies face especially that English goalie GREEN! haha.... might as well have a blue card in soccer eh?

I am a soccer fan, kind of. I admit it. Johnson was a great player man, so was Donovan from US. The UK and the US. lmao. Seriously? In my opinion, America getting a tie with England is almost as bad as England losing. Come on man. 3/4 of my school was siding for England, except for the Americans (cough).

Our whole school's really into the whole soccer thing right now. We actually waited before the match started and turned on to ESPN LIVE (thank the Gods that these things exist now!) and did the whole countdown thing and really loudly too!

And it's amazing how our principal actually understands our craving to watch it. she lets us stay up till 12 past midnight just to watch soccer when she clearly knows that we have to wake up at 6:30 am the next day. How awesome is that huh?

xoxo
Shan2

PS: I'm still alive. Stay tuned.

LOL

2010-06-13T02:18:00.002+08:00

Just when the internet gets tough.
I get a laptop to use just because Chris got off this one.
And I hate those yellow error signs on the wireless internet line bar things.
Stupid things.

O.M.G - Usher ft. Will.I.Am
I loveeeee that song.

Are people back home having a holiday now or what?
It's supposingly summer holidays back in England.

Dance Fever

2010-06-10T01:49:00.002+08:00

ah.
Ok, so we learnt a dance in 3 hours and we performed it in front of Lt. General Mohabbat.
Yeah, he is the chief army dude which was actually pretty cool.
:)

xoxo
Shan2

PS: Dance competition is this Saturday,

2010-06-08T17:32:00.001+08:00

Life is too short so just chill.
CHILL.

Oh, but why?

2010-06-08T13:53:00.003+08:00

don't leave just yet.
I promised to be faithful to my blog, and I'm doing the best I can huns.
:)

The seasons have been changing really fast like instant seasons.
Once, it was even raining 4 times in a day during summer.

School rules have made people miserable but yet again we get to break them.
And hence, the very oh-so cliche quotation,
"Rules are made to be broken."

We paraphrased Macbeth in about one week.
Let me rephrase that.
We paraphrased the WHOLE of Macbeth in about one week.
I obviously got some help from Biba who did it in Italy before coming here.

I'd rather stick a pen in my eyeball than follow the school rule where:

We have to wear shoes or sandals out side dorms, because I run around the school, half the time, barefooted. I'm weird that way. haha.

We can't leave the dorms after a certain time at night. Sorry, but I have to cheoreograph dance steps in the sports hall for the upcoming dance competition. Plus, night time is like the best time to chill with all the stars lying just right up ahead of you.

We should obey the school rules. Woops, I broke half of them without realizing. Promise, I'm innocent.

AND, I still have to catch up on one week's worth of homework which is like deadly because of the following reasons:

There's merely 24 hours in a day with which about 16 hours are used up on absolutely everything that I HAVE TO do which includes the days homework too, not to mention with the limited time span we I have, it's seems quite impossible.
I have better things like my art, dance, music and photography to care about. I don't mean to sound so arrogant, but it's true. If I actually love doing them, why not?
My free time in one day after classes and lunch not counting 4 am in the morning would be approximately about 4 hours only which is (according to me) the lamest thing ever and that's not even counting my shower timings!
There's a new acting/writing scripts/producing workshop meaning we get to learn more about stuff in the showbiz entertainment. This lady from england came over to hold this workshop which is so cool!
In general, if there was 28 hours a day, my work completion would be humanely possible.

Solo - IYAZ

xoxo
Shan2

Cafe Coffee Day

2010-05-30T18:41:00.006+08:00

Hey Jiggy!

Hi.

Just incase you're wondering, the guy behind me is my classmate.
LOL

Oh, and cafe coffee day?
It's new. Just recently opened up here.
excruciating.
IT was GOOD.

Anyways, we went out.
with the guys. and everyone. everyone.
except some people from our class who decided that CS was wayyyyy better to be doing than hanging out with friends. ha. ha. not funny.

The only like new guy I actually actually talk to is like Milan.
You don't pronounce his name like "Milan" in Italy more like the "a" short and fast.
Like Milen instead of Milaan.

Anyways, he breakdances, plays real good sports and is totally chilled.
thank god.

Now, bye.

xoxo
Shan2

PS: I totally sneaked out. haha.

Back To School

2010-05-29T17:32:00.003+08:00

No, not exactly the beginning of school.
Mom's ashes were offered to the Ganga river.

I came up here with the rest of my family.
It was like starting all over again. but again and again.
It's weird. hm.

I want to go home. Sometimes.
But, I love this place. It's like no other.
Any place would be like no other anyway.
But, it's totally chilled. ~~not.~~

Anyway, I'll be blogging.
Keep up.
:)

xoxo
Shan2

PS: John's and Josh's b'days are coming! :D

PS I l love you

2010-05-23T23:52:00.012+08:00

7 months is will still be 7 months long
looooonnnngggg....
See you "soon"

Bebs

Balle Balle
Bhangra Knights No.1

I will miss you guys so so so much

Ro, Ro, Ro your boat.

All the amazing sunsets
I don't care if you get better ones in India
Still.

o_O

GSHOCK
Feel the power

You make me happy

You're my ~~Sunshine~~ Shan Shan

You're not home today sucker

Raindrop Keeps Falling On My Head

I will miss all you guys alot.
I love you guys too much now.
:'(

Why do I have to leave Malaysia?
It's so weird to go back like in the middle of MAY?
It's like you go to school only like in Feb/March.

xoxo
Shan2

PS: I LOVE YOU

Photoshoot anyone?

2010-05-23T15:59:00.005+08:00

Hey Chris,
I'm coming back. soon.
I miss you too.

And most of all,
I love you.
~~Wanna kiss you~~

xoxo
Shan2

PS: Anyone want a photoshoot?

Celinee

2010-05-23T15:41:00.003+08:00

Am I going to miss you or what?
:'(

xoxo
Shan2

PS: Freak Of a Lifetime.

c'est la vie

2010-05-23T01:14:00.007+08:00

This is Art to me.

Art is life.

I know I sound like those "artsy fartsy" kind of people. But at this point, I don't really care anymore because it's not like I go around making art all day long. But it's a fact. To me.

There's nothing more.
Wait, besides Sahaja Yoga.
You can go check it out on google just because the blogger links are a little bit hay wired sometimes. (peace)

I woke up about 10 am (almost beating my previous record). I've been sleeping for 12 hours straight in the past few days. I still can't believe I'll be leaving Malaysia so soon.
:'(
I actually feel like staying this time.

I've started to be so attached to Malaysia. I don't know if it's the weather or place or even country, because it's blooming hot and I prefer the cold weather but, I seriously think it's the people around me.
I love the people around me. I absolutely adore them.
J'aime beaucoup les gens autour de moi.

I would say so that my friends are less, you would say, calculative. The people I hang out with are more or less chilled. Just chilled. They make me chilled, they make my life chilled, they're chilled like all the time. It's amazing.

I'll tell you what I've been up to lately alright?
(Oh, there we go about her life story. Moan, Groan, Sigh. Borrring. But it actually is my blog about my life story. haha)

Taking tonnes of photos and uploading them
Eating take away food which is so bad for health
Hanging out with boys + Celine
Eating and practically sleeping most of the time
Blogging and Facebook
Watching Movies - Nightmare on Elm Street, Shrek 4, 500 days of summer
Starbucks

Yeap, that's just about right.
Just chilling most of the time.
:p

Alors, sommes-nous amis?

xoxo
Shan2

Thanks Mom

2010-05-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

I miss you.
Again and again.

xoxo
Shan2

1234

2010-05-21T14:27:00.000+08:00

A Guy

2010-05-21T02:42:00.004+08:00

That's what I feel like now.
I'm so deprived of girls. ha ha.
I don't really mind seeing as in school, if I chilled with a boy/brother, it would be a major problem. So, I'd say it's alright.

Since I came back, I've been hanging around alot with guys, boys, man.
Dad, Ren, Yan, Bran, Josh, John EVERYDAY.

It's all about futsal, movies, lepaking, college.
College, ew, they're all so grown up now!!

I miss you
:'(

xoxo
Shan2

OMF

2010-05-21T02:19:00.005+08:00

Ok, check that out.
My Foundation year in England, Camberwell College Of Arts.
APPLY HERE!

Course Code	N/A
UCAS Code	N/A
University Code	N/A
Study Level	Further Education
Study Mode	Full Time
Course Length	1 Year
Start Date	September 2010
Application Route	Direct to college.
Application Deadline	29 January 2010
Home/EU Fee	£1,390 per year (2010/11) if you are 19 or over on 31 August before the start of the course, no fee if you are under 19.
International Fee	£9,300 per year (2010/11)
Course Director	Amanda Jenkins
Course Location	Peckham Road
Autumn Term Dates	6 Sept - 17 Dec 2010 (14 weeks)
Spring Term Dates	4 Jan - 21 April 2011 (16 weeks)
Summer Term Dates	9 May - 20 May 2011 (2 weeks)

Rewrite Recapture Rejuvenate.

2010-05-20T21:49:00.009+08:00

REFRESH.

John

Josh

This one taken by Josh.

This one taken by John.

Josh and I watched Shrek 4.
We went out after about 3 quarters of the movie, couldn't stand it any longer.
Plus, I needed to pee real bad, and Bran, his friend and John arrived the Pyramid.
*excuses*

Caramel Frappucino was good, as usual.
Love the customer service in Starbucks.
Brilliant and two thumbs up! :)

We walked around aimlessly.
I have a tendency of linking arms when I walk.
:/
Very bad habit.
Hence, embarrassment of a lifetime.

Puh-lease.

xoxo
Shan2

Lean On Me

2010-05-20T21:36:00.003+08:00

Hey Lobs,
How you been eh?

Thanks for everything. absolutely everything.
You made my day! :)

Click here and here.
This is why.

xoxo
Shan2

PS: Love you forever and ever and I don't have a boyfriend hon! (cheeky smile)